acred Salacious is the unflinching memoir of J T Kohlrin — psychologist, seeker, and survivor — whose life has always existed at the intersection of the sacred and the dangerous. Growing up in the turbulence of late-apartheid South Africa, she found God in meditation before she found disaster in drugs, stumbling through Berlin squats, London squatter communes, and Cape Town's underground arts scene with equal parts ferocity and naivety. Driven by an unshakeable spiritual core and a lifelong hunger for belonging, she moved between worlds — psychiatric institutions, addiction, radical honesty, and eventually, recovery — always searching for the place where her inner life and outer world could finally align. Written with rare literary intelligence and emotional candour, this is a memoir that refuses easy redemption arcs. Instead, it offers something rarer: the portrait of a woman who, after decades of beautiful, catastrophic seeking, learns not just to survive — but to consciously choose her own life.